Feeling and longing are the motive forces behind all human endeavor and human creations ;
Friday, October 21, 2011 | 11:26 PM | 0 letters
"As I go through all kinds of feelings and experiences in my journey through life -- delight, surprise, chagrin, dismay -- I hold this question as a guiding light: "What do I really need right now to be happy?" What I come to over and over again is that only qualities as vast and deep as love, connection and kindness will really make me happy in any sort of enduring way."
True enough ,
only these intangible things make life more enjoyable and happier ,
yet at this point in time of my life ,
scoring well would be one of the tangible things that I really need right now to be happy .
Not about the grades ,
but how a good certificate and testimonial would color my life in the future .
Working towards dreams ,
and the very first step is to overcome the obstacle A levels ,
with brilliant colors .
"Feelings like disappointment, embarrassment, irritation, resentment, anger, jealousy, and fear, instead of being bad news, are actually very clear moments that teach us where it is that we're holding back. They teach us to perk up and lean in when we feel we'd rather collapse and back away. They're like messengers that show us, with terrifying clarity, exactly where we're stuck. This very moment is the perfect teacher, and, lucky for us, it's with us wherever we are."
Precisely ,
these strong negative feelings have been the ones that are perking me up ,
although they usually seem like parasites that kill many ,
bit by bit .
But as time goes by ,
one would learn you would need a balance in life ;
happiness is the reason why you feel sad ,
and it's precisely that you feel sad which make you long for happiness .
Embrace these negativities with a broad mind and soul ,
for they will surely be of help if you would to use these emotions wisely .
"Emotions are celebrated and repressed, analyzed and medicated, adored and ignored -- but rarely, if ever, are they honored."
To a certain extent ,
I do respect my feelings and emotions .
I allow myself to feel down ,
allow myself to celebrate out of nothingness amidst these days of preparation towards A levels .
Thankful for being able to feel .
The anxiety , excitedness , worries , panic , uncertainness at this moment serve great purpose .
These help us to face it all now ,
so that we are prepared for a wave of higher intensity to strike us by the time A level steps in .
Gone through the education system for close to 12 years now ,
and A levels going to be the pinnacle of our education life .
Of course ,
University would be another story ,
but yeah right now focus would be on A levels .
"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow."
"Let us rise up and be thankful,
for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little,
and if we didn't learn a little,
at least we didn't get sick,
and if we got sick, at least we didn't die;
so, let us all be thankful."
for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little,
and if we didn't learn a little,
at least we didn't get sick,
and if we got sick, at least we didn't die;
so, let us all be thankful."
And lastly ,
grateful .
Every interaction I had in MJ changed me in a way or another ,
and I'm thankful for that .
Also people who are constantly reading my mundane life posts ,
these are the people who genuinely care ,
spend at least a few seconds everyday thinking about "what's she doing right now?"
or "would I see a new blog post by now?"
Well , that doesn't apply to all readers though .
Either way I thank those who cares ,
I can feel the moral support spiritually muahahaha .
I finally found no more interest in blogging .
Not because blogging's not interesting ,
but because of the purpose of blogging and opening it for everyone to see .
To a certain extent ,
every blogger will know a handful of people that read their blog .
By having that mentality in mind ,
one would tend to subconsciously blog in a way that one wants other people to perceive the blog post as it is .
It's as though you're blogging for others .
Maybe I'm just the type that's more conscious about what I type ,
and how I worry every single word that I type may affect someone reading the posts of mine .
And it just doesn't make sense .
Even though I really agree with Dr Seuss quote of :
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter,
and those who matter don't mind.”
Maybe in reality ,
those who mind matters .
Like what Ranice says ,
one of the best way to prepare for A levels is to put down all possible emotions that are hanging off us .
And all shall end here I guess .
All the best to everyone taking A levels ;
it's time to soar . (: